Line Breaks & Other Violent Crimes

These are things I think about in order to stay alive in Los Angeles.

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Francis Bacon’s people have bacon faces. I want to heat them
on the stove and eat their misery. If you’ve never seen one
of his paintings, imagine a man’s face being skinned
as the plane he’s on is going down into the Atlantic, the lapdogs
in his eyes terrified but searching anyway for someone’s leg
to hump. This is not the extent of my view of human nature,
for I feel Solzhenitsyn would have done well on stilts.
Bacon is memorable as a fist where very few of us want one,
yet these are images that wear their violence as casually
as birds wear flying. Sometimes I think Bacon is how the night
looks at us, how God would appear or the Big Bang
across from me in a bar, sipping some fruity yummy umbrella drink
while trying to decide if it’s worth the effort
to tear me apart. Other times I’m sure God or The Big Bang
drink scotch and Drano, and that people, if I look closely enough,
appear oddly soft, bloody but strangely cuddly
in Bacon’s work, fuzzy really in how frenzied
and multiple he painted their nervous edges
for museums to place the visual equivalent of live
and loose wires on their walls. I mentioned a lapdog earlier,
when if you’ve ever wondered what the child of a man
and Doberman would look like turned inside out, consult Bacon.
If you’ve never wondered this, we’ll have little to talk about,
so I guess this is goodbye.

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(via Verse Daily)

Posted at 3:33pm and tagged with: bob hicok, francis bacon, no not that one the other one, poetry, one column,.

“You broke my kneecaps” makes more sense
than “You broke my heart.” The jilted
would recognize each other at the bus stop
on crutches and gather their sniffling woe
like a herd of tripods off to the side
and smoke a communal smoke while writing
country songs in their thoughts
that begin with lines such as “Love
is like shin splints.” My calling here’s
to save the heart from poets
who’ve troped it to death. Personally
my heart is like the thing I least
want to give away or have stepped on, OK
it’s my second least popular organ
to consider being stomped, number one,
according to the accordion of my brain
is my brain. The last time
someone told me he was a sucker
for romance, I licked his face and he
was very much not happy about it.
I was expecting a hint of strawberry
but people taste so much like regret
that cannibalism, notwithstanding
what seems to be the chicken flavor
of all flesh, would be the saddest diet
on the planet. “Honey, who’s for dinner”
aren’t words I want to say
anymore than “My heart beats only for you.”
“My heart beats only for a while”
is a sadder poem anyway so why make this
an anatomy class with cadavers
who were probably inmates to gauge
by the tattoos as I recall them
from college, when I was in love with a woman
who turned to me with a heart in her hand
and said, and I’ll never forget this,
“Yuck.” Yet I found it beautiful
in how refused and shriveled and stupid
it looked out of context
and wanted to but couldn’t
put it back to work and there
it was, failure to be of use
on a scale that to this day makes hope
seem a limping, broken word I love. 

Posted at 9:45am and tagged with: I like this but am really bothered by the use of anymore as one word when it should grammatically be two, bob hicok, poetry, one column,.

The dog licks my hand as I worry
about the left nipple
of the woman in the bathroom.

She is drying her hair, the woman
whose left nipple is sore.
We looked this evening
for diagonal cuts
or discoloration
or bite marks from small insects
that may be in our bed.

It is a good bed, a faithful bed.
A bed that won’t be hurt
by the consideration we gave
to the possibility of small
though disproportionately
strong insects in our bed.

The blow-dryer sounds like a jet
taking off. The first time
I flew to Brussels, people began
the journey happy but ended
with drool on their shirts.

She is drying her hair
though she has never been to Brussels.
Drying her hair
though she could be petting a dog.
Drying her hair
while having red thoughts
about what the pain in her nipple means.

I would not dry my hair
in such a moment but I am bald.
The body of the woman
has many ways to cease
being the body of the woman.

I have one way
to be happy
and she is that way.

I would like to fly with her to Brussels.
We would not be put off by the drool.
This is what happens when people sleep.
We would buy postcards of the little boy
who saved Brussels when he peed on a fire.
We would be romantic in public places.

For the moment
these desires can best be furthered
by petting a dog.

I’m also working on this theory.
That sometimes a part of the body
just hurts.
That the purpose of prayer
is to make the part of the body
that sometimes just hurts
the little toe or appendix.

Something vestigial or redundant.
Something that can be jettisoned.
I have no reason
to use the word cancer
while petting a dog.

Here is a piece of a second
during which a jet is not flying
nor is it on the ground.

I’m working on a theory
that no one can die
inside that piece of a second.

If you are comforted
by this thought you are welcome
to keep it. 

Posted at 10:27am and tagged with: bob hicok, poetry,.